A little update on things since my post last week. I’ve got back together with my girlfriend, Katherine. We’ve got a lot of things to work on, but we know where we’re going now. To sum it up, I was getting frustrated with trying to work things out, but trying to do so without a plan. Such things just don’t work out.
Before I go further – I’m gonna show you all what she looks like. Here’s us together last year.
Jean-Sebastien is a really good friend of mine. Even though I’ve never met the guy, he’s been there for me when it comes to anything life throws my way. When it came to Katherine, he put it simply: Do you love her or do you love what it’s like to be with someone? For the days that we were apart, I felt completely empty. Not just alone, but empty. It was really, really horrible.
When Katherine and I started talking again, she wrote down some of her thoughts and some of her reading that she had done to try to make things easier for us. One of the readings that she had sent me included the following:
[There are] four rules for recovery: you’ve got to meet each other’s needs; you’ve got to protect each other from our own self-centeredness; you’ve got to give each other time for undivided attention; and you’ve got to be radically honest with each other.
I’ll admit – I’m guilty of not having followed those four rules while we were together before, but I’m trying my best to make them happen now. She’s going to be moving back home, which is about an hour away, and when she was there during the summer, I didn’t make much effort to go and see her. I’ve already told her that I’ll visit her this Wednesday, which made her very happy.
That’s all that I ever want to do for you Kath. I just want you to be happy – whatever that means.
I love you.